diary.

1.3.26

we're starting fresh.

2025 was a great year and also a very very tough year. i moved into a new place and my whole life shifted. i think i thought everything would be rainbows and butterflies after moving but if im honest, a bunch of things did not go as planned. the consensus i have come to is that i cannot continue to run a full production myself. either i have to scale back and do less production work or i have to hire help. i truly don't know which route to take but i hope i find some clarity soon. my mental health has been in a downward spiral lately and i know it is because i am not spending my time on the things i love. i just want to make and explore and delve into subjects i haven't even scratched the surface of but there is always that nagging need to cover bills and production has always been my primary income. i have many ideas to try and so much desire to share them with the world but i feel stuck a lot of the time. i want this diary to be more honest this year so im just going to lay it all out there from now on. good or bad this is life and i still have a lot to learn. hope you guys have a good start to your year. wishing you love. xx -C